I was actually feeling pretty distressed and anxious, then I came on and read all the comments and it just me :).
First things, thanks to all the love from my fellow bloggers. I’m so glad that I’m involved with this blogring. As Tomas says, I’m Miss Popular (haha). But honestly thank you so much for the positive comments. It’s made me cheer right up. I was feeling particularly distressed, on the train home picked up the paper as you do, and just reading it. Everyone knows about those French students who were murdered and tortured to death, a disgusting awful thing. Just reading it made me feel so down. How can anyone justify that level of violence and depravity against anyone – and over something as minor as a game console and money. And failures in administration kept the murderers out of prison where they should have been, so they had that opportunity to ruin so many people’s lives. It makes me feel sick, it really does. And my heart goes out to their families and everyone else who was affected. It just made me feel pretty low also, because I have a new baby niece. I’ve never been a big baby fan, they’re cute and all, but I don’t go crazy and coo and comment how broody I am (like many of my friends!). But it was like wow, I’m an aunt, and I may be prejudiced, but she is gorgeous, and I’ve got so much love for her. And it worries me that this little girl is being brought into a world where things like this are becoming more and more frequent. I know my parents raised me the best they could, and protected me and my siblings any way they could, but I just worry. I’ve been so content recently, and been able to see the beauty of many different things, such as just sitting in the park laughing with some friends in the sun, but I just feel a bit sad. Also this whole Labour fallout is ridiculous. I know failing is one of those things the British do well (lol) but it’s ridiculous. The government is falling apart at the seams, and despite everything, no-one can see that this has been the best Labour govt ever (my personal opinion). But more importantly, backbiting and sniping and undercutting just engenders frustation and bad feeling. Leading to – worse case scenario, the BNP getting their foot further in the door, or slightly less worse but just as worrying, David Cameron as PM (oh my). But thank you everyone for the comments, myself and my beau are very happy. It’s just nice to have someone you don’t have to pretend around. And not just the depression, it’s nice to meet someone with a mutual love for board games and oranges. Haha. Special thanks to Sarah, haven’t seen you in a while, I’m glad things worked out well for you. I was thinking about that whilst on the train, I spend a lot of time on public transport, it’s a good time to think when I don’t feel like reading or just listening to music. I am worried about my degree, and I know even though I’m trying to stay positive about it, it is going to affect me greatly and knock my confidence. But it’s very heartening to hear that you’re doing your MA which is fantastic, and I wish you all the luck in the world and hopefully things will swing my way too. One thing I have learnt over the years, things don’t always come by in the conventional manner you planned, good GCSEs, A-Levels, Uni … all sailing smoothly, never indeed. But potholes and bumps in the road are part of life, a lot of it isn’t enjoyable, and I’m enjoying the ride so to speak. Those things make me, me and how I live my life. So it may be some time before I can think back on my degree without feeling a bit crap, but as Sarah said, things don’t always go to plan, but sometimes it’s the best thing. Thanks to Charlie, I hope your exams went well! Congrats to you and your lady, and I wish you lots of love and luck and puppies potentially. And Tomas Tomas Tomas, you are great. You’re all great, but I know every time Tomas writes back to me, he’ll come out with an obscure quote which makes me chuckle. =p I will write another blog post very soon, as in probably later on today. But my bathwater is getting cold…
Comment by Tomas posted on Fri, 05/06/2009 13:05
Hey, yeah, I was doing this article on Belfast murders..these guys just sit in the bar and watch the game and then a black guy comes in and goes to the loo…and someone says, look, here’s your guy. And they follow him into the loo and two of them kill him while the third one is on watch…I remember thinking – how can there be so much evil in people? And where does it come from? We seem to be doing all we can to make the world a better place…That’s why, I suspect, I’ve always had this affection for working on the force and that’s why want to join the army next year if I don’t get into Uni – because “it seems that there’s no way of fighting evil but with another kind of evil”. Here’s an obscure quote for you – it’s from The Chronicles of Riddick) I can relate…I guess, if anything, that makes you a better person, the way you felt about the French student thing…Anyway…moving on…Kudos to you for the baby thing…lolll….it’s adorable….sopmehow I never understood the cooing…and it’s the first time I knew of a girl who doesn’t…lol…right…lastly…I know it’s a cliche but here’s what I think about bumps…You know when you’re on a rollercoaster and you’re going down and you’ree screaming cos you’re scared but in a good way? I think this is how life should be…Let’s not get upset, or at least try not to, about the bad things…it’s just no use…it sounds absurd but try to come to terms with the fact that pain will always be there…I guess when it hurts it means you can still feel…the worst is when it doesn’t hurt anymore.
Comment by Anala posted on Fri, 05/06/2009 01:29
** made me 🙂 Duh, Silly Anala.