Sometimes, we do know best!
There’s a certain irony to this… Part of the reason why I joined the blogring was to try and not only help myself but help others too. As my depression began to rear its ugly head again, I knew that my connection to this group would keep me honest about my journey and my lessons. As things started to spiral downward I was told to leave the group. My supervisors at uni thought it was an unhealthy activity and that it would only serve to increase my depression. Even my new therapist thought it was a self-defeating task. He too told me to leave the group and focus on myself and my healing. Both times that it was suggested, I refused to leave. I kept trying to explain that blogging about my experiences and sharing in the experiences of others wasn’t harmful, it was helping me. But they couldn’t see it that way. Everyone assumed that it was only making my depression worse. It wasn’t. What they never understood was that this place was and is a safe-haven for me. It’s the one place where I can come to share where my feelings, thoughts, and actions aren’t judged. It’s the place I can be me…even if ‘me’ is broken, bruised, or just down-right sad.
I’m glad I didn’t follow their ‘sage advice’. I’m glad I didn’t leave the group. I know that being a part of this group has helped me in ways I’m aware of and perhaps even in ways that I’m not. I may not comment on everyone’s story or blog, but I’ve read them all — every word. We share something here that’s personal – our own open wounds so to speak. I just wanted to say that I’m here; I’m glad I’m here, and being here has helped….despite the supposed ‘sage advice’ of those who think they know better.
May today find you understanding the beautiful beings that you are — each of you. And know if you ever need a friend, I’m here.
Peace be your journey,
Comment by Rees posted on Sun, 07/02/2010 15:57
I’m glad you stuck with it for purely selfish reasons – you’re a nice person and I enjoy hearing what you have to say!
You have certainly made a positive contribution and I’m sure you’ve helped a lot of people.
It’s hard to imagine this blogring being a hindrance – in fact it’ll be weird not having it at the end of the year. I think I will have to find some place to express myself – even if it means going rogue and starting an account at blogspot or someplace. To anyone reading this who isn’t a member of the blogring, maybe it’s something to think about? Remember, you can always post anonymously or under a pseudonym!
Comment by Greta posted on Sun, 07/02/2010 00:16
There was a time I wondered if joining this group was a good decision or not. Even before we started I was considering leaving. Maybe we all have. Compared to you I actually only had good reactions from other people though. The few people I have told, they all supported this decision and wished me good luck with it. Even my psychologist and the counsellor think its a good thing for me to write about my feelings and -like you said- “It’s the one place where I can come to share where my feelings, thoughts, and actions aren’t judged. It’s the place I can be me…even if ‘me’ is broken, bruised, or just down-right sad.”
“Sometimes, we do know best!” – We ALWAYS know best ourselves!!!