Well I guess I should start by saying Happy New Year to you all, however, if you are anything like me then you will be feeling the blues of the new year of beginning another year and perhaps wondering what is the point of it all. (Not in a suicidal way).

Well I guess I should start by saying Happy New Year to you all, however, if you are anything like me then you will be feeling the blues of the new year of beginning another year and perhaps wondering what is the point of it all. (Not in a suicidal way).

I am in a place of questioning why I am doing what I am doing if I do not feel a sense of achievement or fulfilment. It feels an awful lot of the time that I am participating in education because the thought of not going back to it doesn’t leave me many other choices that will provide me with a good salary or with a job that will more than likely not fulfil my desires, whatever they may be.

I feel like I am searching for something that I can’t find, which is made more difficult as I do not know what it is I am searching, but just know that I hope I find it, because I am just not happy.

I am not sad all the time, I have my moments here and there but can’t find the happiness that I so desire.

I have recently through therapy discovered that perhaps I do not know what happiness feels like and therefore feel like I never experience it due to this. Or that I have a fictional view of what it looks like that may not be so realistic. Then I find myself asking, if it is fictional then everyone must feel rather lousy most of the time and then what kind of world are we living in? Hence my question “What is the point of it all” if no one is truly happy????????????????????????????

Any ideas or thoughts welcome?