So things have been going well, or at least they until recently. I think it is something to do with the shorter darker days, and the fact that I have upcoming exams. I don’t realise how stressed I am, or how it is affecting me, and then all of a sudden my brain goes into complete meltdown. I now know I have to spot the signs of stress before it all piles up like this, and I need to in future take some time for myself and do something fun.
As I said, the past few months have been amazing, I have been able to do so many things and go to so many places. I have been able to socialise properly and I actually felt like depression might be behind me for good. Of course my depression doesn’t work like that and although I do have periods of what I call “being normal”, there will always be the thought that one day I might wake up and feel bad again. Maybe that makes me appreciate life more.
I also felt that I was not the anxious, nervous person that I used to be. Although I don’t feel at my worst right now, it is still disappointing to be feeling low again, almost as if I’m angry at myself for feeling this way. I have learned to try to be optimistic though, and who knows, in a few weeks I may feel great again!
All the best!